He told this awesome, well known story from the Bible about when Jesus' disciples are on a boat and see someone out on the waters. It is Jesus, but they believe it is a ghost or an evil spirit. When Jesus tells the disciples it is him, they hesistate and do not want to believe him. One of his best friends, Peter says "Jesus, if that is you, then call me to walk to you on the water."
Let's take a step back here before I get any further. To you and I, seeing someone walk on water, or even standing on it would be pretty crazy. But the disiples knew Jesus. They had seen him heal the mute and the blind. He had fed 5,000 people with 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish, and he had brought the dead to life. And yet they did not believe that he was out walking on the water. They knew his voice too, which is strange to me why they didn't believe he was truly out there.
Now back to the story. Jesus calls out to Peter to walk out on the water, but as Peter is walking on the water and has more time to think, he begins to doubt and starts to sink. He calls out to Jesus for help and Jesus takes his hand to save him. However, Jesus asks his friend why he ever doubted him in the first place.
We live in a world today where seeing is believing. Something has to be proven fact for us to accept it and let it influence our lives. But if we hear of something we know we are not capable of, then we push it away and reject it. Everyone knows that it is impossible for us as humans to fly, but I have seen videos of men in wing suits who glide off mountains thousands of feet in the air like a bird and landing just as softly and safe as a butterrfly. In reality, there are many things we can do, it's just our choice whether or not we will find a way to make it happen.
"If you really want something new, you're going to have to try doing something different to obtain it."
I believe that in life, when things are going our way, it can sometimes be harder then to focus on God and what he is doing in our lives. We get too comfortable and figure we have control of our lives. But, when we are unsure of things like Peter, we tend to sink, and that is when we call to God for help. I feel like I have been in the sinking stage for the longest time now. Ever since freshman year in high school, my romantic life has been a pile of poo. One of my favorite things to say is "My Iphone is like my boyfriend: I don't have one."
I know it seems shallow to try and base my happiness on whether or not I have someone interested in me, but that is something I struggle with everyday. And it's not even the thought of having a boyfriend, but more of just having a guy that genuinely cares about me as a sister in Christ and wants to be there for me. One of the hardest things I have had to go through in high school is watching my friends go on their first dates and to their homecomings and proms with their bf's and sometimes I just think to myself "God, what is wrong with me? What did I ever do to deserve this? I'm scared and don't know why I haven't experienced a guy who cares for me."
1 John 4:18-19
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us.
"A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man must seek Him in order to find her."
